From Counterfeit Covenant to Christ-Centered Clarity: Discerning God’s Voice
“From Counterfeit Covenant to Christ-Centered Clarity:
Discerning God’s Voice”
🔑 The Return: Rededication and the Road Ahead
On March 15, 2016, at the age of 24, I rededicated my life to Jesus Christ. That decision was the beginning of my true spiritual journey—but I quickly learned that deliverance doesn't always happen in a day. Sometimes, it unfolds through a process of painful pruning.
Shortly after, during Easter weekend or the following week, I met Counterfeit #1 at a small church gathering connected to Gathering Oasis. At the time, I was excited to meet another believer who shared an interest in fitness and music, even though I wasn’t pursuing a fitness journey myself. He was attractive, smiled often, and said all the “right” things. I went on two dates with him.
By the second date, the Holy Spirit sent red flag alerts, but I didn't fully recognize how He was speaking to me then. This man claimed he would wait until marriage to have sex, but refused to withhold kissing. He gave me an ultimatum: “Either kiss me, or we stop dating.” That moment was revealing—and not in the way he intended. Not long after we ended things, I learned he knew about his calling to ministry but had rejected it, choosing fitness, music, and writing over obedience to God.
During this season, God kept bringing ministry to my attention through various conversations. I began to assume I was meant to be with someone in ministry—but unknowingly, I let that idea become an idol. It wasn’t God's confirmation—it was my desire, unchecked and inflated.
🔑 The Idol of Influence: When Admiration Becomes Obsession
Around this same time, I began to idolize a popular Christian influencer, Heather Lindsey. I consumed everything—her blogs, videos, social media, ministry, clothing choices, vitamins, even her family life. I admired how she heard from God, talked with Him, and structured her life. But my admiration became an obsession. I modeled my walk with God after hers, rather than developing my own intimacy with the Lord. I didn’t realize then that this kind of idolatry opens spiritual doors—and not the kind God wants open.
🔑 The Counterfeit Covenant Begins
In April 2016, just a month after meeting Counterfeit #1, I encountered Counterfeit #2 on public transportation. I wasn’t physically, emotionally, or spiritually attracted to him. Initially, I said no when he asked for my number. But then I heard an audible voice say, "You're going to marry him; he is your husband." I unknowingly gave in.
What I didn’t know was that this voice was not the Holy Spirit. It was a demonic spirit masquerading as the Spirit of God—what I now understand as the counterfeit Holy Spirit. This spirit had pursued me for much of my life and became more aggressive after each of my baptisms (2009, 2016, and 2018). This was a time-released curse, activated as I tried to climb closer to my calling.
That spring, I went on a fast, and the Lord revealed parts of His plan for my life. But I made the mistake of sharing it with the counterfeit. He took what I said and applied it to “our” life, manipulating my words into a false future.
In July 2016, I took a road trip with him to meet his family. I felt uncomfortable the entire time—by the environment, by the names I was being called, by everything. Instead of leaving, I spiraled deeper. I lost the job God had given me earlier that year, and in desperation, I moved in with him and his family. We started marriage counseling and joined a church group, but he was never committed. I showed up alone more often than not. Eventually, we were asked to leave.
🔑 The Wedding That Shouldn’t Have Happened
Despite all the warning signs, we pressed forward. We planned a wedding, visited my family, and got married in December 2016 in a church office. I wore regular clothes. There were no photos or celebration. I felt unsettled the entire morning—but I wrongly assumed it was spiritual warfare from the enemy. In reality, it was the Holy Spirit trying to warn me one last time.
The man who officiated our marriage was not led by God. After the ceremony, I was pressured into having sex, and we conceived our child that same day.
🔑 The Unraveling: Abuse, Arrests, and God's Mercy
By January 2017, domestic violence began. The following month, he had me arrested. In May 2017, I had him arrested. The relationship became a toxic cycle of chaos, deception, and trauma.
In October 2018, I discovered—without his knowledge—that he had secretly filed for divorce. I showed up in court to find him there with his pregnant mistress. She physically assaulted me in the courthouse and was arrested.
The enemy wasn’t done yet. In January 2019, I was arrested due to her false accusations. The divorce was finalized in February 2019, and by court order, we were legally barred from remarrying each other or living in the same household again.
From December 2016 to February 2019, I was in covenant with a man God never chose for me. That season of my life was the fruit of idolatry. I had made ministry, marriage, and man my gods—and the consequence was a narcissistic counterfeit that I allowed into the sacred space reserved only for God’s will.
🔑 What I’ve Learned
The Holy Spirit speaks—but so do other spirits. I had to focus on discerning His voice through Scripture, prayer, and spiritual maturity (1 John 4:1).
Idolatry is dangerous. It disguises itself as desire, admiration, or even godly ambition—but anything we place above God is a snare (Exodus 20:3).
God redeems. Even when we fall into deception, He is merciful. He corrects, delivers, restores, and heals (Joel 2:25, Psalm 147:3).
🔑 To the Reader
Maybe you’ve walked a similar road. Maybe you’ve ignored red flags, mistaken a voice for God's, or built your life around a promise you thought was from Him. Take heart: you are not disqualified.
Your mistakes don’t cancel your destiny. God doesn’t waste pain. He turns ashes into beauty, confusion into clarity, and bondage into breakthrough (Isaiah 61:3). I pray this testimony strengthens your discernment and reminds you that God’s best for you will never come through compromise.
🔑Activation: Breaking Counterfeit Agreements & Reclaiming God’s Voice
1. Create a quiet space with your Bible, journal, and a pen. Light a candle or play soft worship music if desired.
2. Reflect & Write:
Write down the names or nicknames of any counterfeit relationships, soul ties, or false promises you've held on to.
Journal any areas where you’ve idolized people, marriage, ministry, or even influencers over intimacy with God.
Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal any false voices you have agreed with—whether from the enemy, your emotions, or outside influences.
3. Renounce & Release: (Say aloud)
“In the name of Jesus Christ, I repent for every agreement I’ve made with counterfeit relationships, false confirmations, and idolatry. I renounce the spirit of deception, the counterfeit Holy Spirit, and every time-released curse working against my destiny. I cancel every soul tie and illegal covenant made outside of God’s will. I release [say their names] and every false attachment now, and I break agreement with every lie. I reclaim my mind, my heart, and my future. I belong to Jesus Christ alone.”
4. Receive & Realign: (Say aloud)
“Abba Father, I receive Your love and mercy. Cleanse me with the blood of Jesus Christ. Fill every place in me that was broken or deceived. Teach me to know Your voice. Restore my discernment. I choose Your truth, Your timing, and Your will for my life. I yield to the Holy Spirit, and I declare that I am aligned with Heaven’s design for my destiny.”
🔑Prayer: Deliverance from Counterfeit Voices & Restoration of Discernment
Heavenly Father, Thank You for being a God of mercy, who redeems and restores. I come before You today as the apple of your eye, laying down every counterfeit relationship, broken place, and idol I’ve built. I repent for placing anyone and anything above You. I repent for mistaking other voices for Yours, and I ask for the blood of Jesus Christ to cover every door that was opened through deception.
Lord, Savior, and Redeemer please sever every soul tie that is not from You. Break the power of manipulation, confusion, and premature covenant. Uproot every lie planted by the enemy, and silence every counterfeit voice that has tried to mimic the Holy Spirit in my life.
Restore my spiritual ears to hear You clearly. Sharpen my discernment. Teach me to wait well, to follow Your voice, and to trust Your hand. I declare that I am no longer bound by the past, but released into the freedom and truth of Jesus Christ. I step into divine alignment and Kingdom identity. I receive healing, clarity, and renewed purpose.
Let every broken place become a testimony of Your power. Let every scar remind me that You are the God who sees, heals, and redeems. In Jesus Christ name, Amen. Amen. Amen.
🔑Closing Encouragement
I pray that my testimony strengthens your discernment and reminds you that God’s best for you will never come through compromise. You don’t have to be ashamed of where you’ve been. God uses the wilderness to prepare His children for the promise. You are not disqualified—you're just getting started.
